I'm getting awful scared of the future. My family has been spooking me out because I chose not to go to school. But meh, you know what? I can't do it. I can't waste their money being institutionalized for another year, let alone four.
But that's not what I'm scared of. I'm not terrified of lacking a college degree or anything of that sort, I know I'm intelligent enough to function in society and I possess the right social tools to survive in the big sea of life. What I'm scared of is not being able to do what I've labeled as my passion...
I love acting, it's my life. Drama isn't a cornerstone, it's the keystone to my life and that makes it that much scarier if I don't get to pursue it. Sometimes, I truly feel I'm good at what I do. I've worked hard at my skills and surrounded myself with other very talented people; the competition was extremely healthy. Honing my own talents has been a challenge, but it pays off. I've yet to be called bad and I'm usually labeled the best or one of the best in each cast I work with.
The fact of the matter is: soon I'll be out out there with the people like me, I'll be on the next echelon of acting. Soon, I'll be surrounded by other talented, hungry actors wishing to make a leap with the same part I'm going for. I'm scared I'm only good for the level I'm at, maybe I'm not good enough for the real world.
On the other hand, I've been told by people in the business that I possess the right mindset for this. I guess I'll just have to stay persistent and hold true to my calling.
- Andrew
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